ever heard some insane banter about how sacred trust is in a relationship? I think this sacred trust was kinda breached today. I think, the main reason I refused to lend my mp3 player to her was because A) no guarantee I would get it back in the short term (sudden memory of various cds still with her after 3 yearas) B) no guarantee she would take extremely good care of it C) none of my songs are to her taste, so what's the point? D) didn't think they would stay in school long enough to wait for my release (this proved correct). Naturally, if I'd lent my player, it would not be with me now and technically, at her house. In long run, when her memory problem acts up, it would no longer be mine, and instead, a permanent resident in her house. I cannot, and will not let this happen. My player is one of my many possessions i deem more precious than my life. I cannot let my life become a permanent resident in someone else's house. if this little lending incident is enough to cause a breakdown, then i suppose this friendship wasn't even worthy of cherishing in the first place. besides, it already was a little rocky in the first place, in addition to my recent mood phase in which i am almost numb to all happenings. It would not be a happy ending. I feel much better after listing all my reasons out.
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